A boring Monday

Mood:

<-- Bored

Do you ever feel that, you've been expecting someone to come to your house all of a sudden?

Do you ever feel that, you've been waiting for someone to surprise you with a visit?

and do you ever feel sooo bored that you've been expecting things but, it will never happen?

That's what I feel today...

Hmm... an odd feeling I guess but, I really thought someone would come today...

surprise me with a surprise visit...

ee... yesh... I've been expecting a lot...

even though there's no reason I guess

I feel sooo totally lonely today!!! :(

I want to talk to someone...

Hmm... you know, I'm missing someone

Who? you know who!

I've been writing about him here for a while...

Yesh... My knight... I've been missing him -_-...

I don't know why but, that's what I feel

And I want to see him now... I've been expecting that he'll come even without a reason but...

my expectations are all imaginations... -_-...

*sigh... I really thought that anime scenes can come to life

Like, destiny, coincidences and such things

But... waahhh!! I'm being too immature!

And last night I've been thinking of too many things

Becoz of that, I realized something

that I should be who I am starting tomorrow

And I should learn things for my own... uhm... for my success... i think (huh?!)

wah! I feel so wierd today!

I just want to write what I want to write! >:(

hmm... and I realized that, someone is taking me for granted

yesh... my knight is taking me for granted

that's what I think!

I want to ask him, Why does he like me? (if he ever does)

We've known each other ever since high school

And he really doesn't notice me up until now

So, why now... why does he like me now?!

What's his reason for liking me?

ugh... I'm confused...

This feeling sucks... I can't tell anyone but I wanna tell someone

I'm sick of solving problems on my own

I'm sick of being not true to myself

I'm sick of being manipulated all the time

I hate changing... but I really want to change!

I wanna change now

For the good I guess

ee... I feel sooo bored I'm writing all this junk silly stuffs

ok so enough with the weird things orz.....

I know I've been thinking too much coz I'm bored otl

BTW, I've been studying hard last night

reading notes etc

and this afternoon I prepare my own lunch

ee... yesh... I cook my own food

I wanna learn things like cooking and laundry

coz I think I'm becoming too spoiled and dependent

and I want to throw away my pride

So I'm gaining my confidence and I want to show my true self

I want to become mature

I don't want to be stucked-up anymore

I know, if I become true to myself, I will lost some things

like friends and such

but I know some people will remain

my family and true friends

*sigh... so now, I will change

for the better of course

I want to show them the true me

And I want to throw away the things I hate

So, this is what I can write when I'm bored huh?

Sorry for the randomness

coz I'm really expecting someone to visit me home now

even without a reason

but... uwah... he didn't came so I feel down

ahahah!

so til here... bye now! n_n