1st week of school aftermath

Mood:

<-- weak but happy!

woah! The first week of school is... well... ordinary... aheheh ^^

We did meet our profs, except for one subject..

Well I guess classes will be in serious state starting next week

So I better read some notes ^^

Today, I'm home alone

My mom and my lil bro went to play bingo at the mall

and my dad and sis went to Manila...

It's really boring, so I'm here surfing and reading manga

And I had organized my tinierme account... aheheh

gonna post some links and pics later

For the mean time..........................

uwah! Me has a flu!!! T^T

I feel soooo weak! And I've been sleeping much... -_-...

Hm... oh by the way, I haven't posted yesterday and the other day... ahehhe

Sorry about that -_-...

But anyways, in those two days, me and my knight had been together

After we went to visit Marianne on the hospital, we walked together on my way home

(coz I wanna go home to eat lunch)

But then he asked me if I wanted to go to someplace...

Yup! I don't think it's a date but, on the other day, we visited our high school school (get it?)

ee... I told you that we went to the same school when we were in high school right?

And he ask me if I wanted to go and visit it... and yes I agree immediately... :D

hmm... That school had a lot of changes since I last visited it

Like, there were lots of improvements...

I haven't taken a photo... ehehe... I forgot... sorry! ^^;

Well anyway, uwah... even though I think it's not a date, I actually feel like it's one :)

We talked to our 2nd year teacher in history...

I had a feeling that she didn't know me anymore... but that doesn't matter XP

After that, my knight treat me with fries and softdrinks...ee.. OwO *blushes

And we've been talking about things... ee...

I'm not good at talking so he's the one who always talks... ^_^

Yay! I feel sooo happy! TuT

Being with the person who really cares for you... Being just by his side... I feel totally safe :D

And happy deep inside (ee... I am a person who doesn't show her feelings)

hmm... what more... -_-...

And yesterday, My classmates have been wondering if the two of us are dating

And they've been asking me if we had a relationship

ee... I hate it when they're asking those things -_-..

Coz I blush a lot and they've been picking on me O_o

And they read his text messages from my cellphone

I don't want them to read those but, they are really on to it so I guess it's oukei (?)

And whenever they bully me and ask those things in front of my knight,

I feel so shy and I always keep my distance from him -_-...

ee... oh, about the relationship thing, no, he's not my bf yet (yet?)

coz I'm still not sure if I feel LOVE

But I do like him....

(LIKE is different from LOVE)

hmm... And I want to know him more first... aheheh ^^

The worst thing that happened yesterday was when my friend, Glecy, told me something

She ask me a question like, who should I choose, them (my friends) or my knight?

I don't want to answer questions like those coz I feel those questions are silly

Silly in the fact that those questions are not meant to be answers nor questioned -_-...

She said that I should distance myself from my knight

And she also said that Prince is better than my Knight...

and deep inside I totally disagree :(

I told her that I want to believe from what I see, and from my point of view

And from my feelings of course

But I also said that I am considering what she said

So that she wouldn't get angry at me... ^^

Ee... I'm also considering the past, my experiences and thoughts...

I don't want to make another mistake

So I'm looking at different angles..

Ee... Yes I am confused right now... I even cried last night

It's really hard to decide on something so serious

And there are lots of hindrances to start with

like, my friends are saying things against him

And my mom will totally disagree if I tell her :(

Uwah... I don't know what to do!!!

But for now, I think I'll just enjoy being with him :)

And set aside those problems

hmm... Do you think, this feelings will last... forever?

bad luck + bad news + pissed off

Mood:
Bad mood and totally pissed off

Buhuu! I'm sooooo totally angry an pissed off today! >:-O
coz... I feel sooo unlucky... uhuhu.... T^T
First... my bestfriend, Marianne, is confined in the hospital... since yesterday.... -__-...
It's still unknown whether she has 'dengue' or 'typhoid fever'
and she can't come to school... nobody knows how long it will take...
So I feel so alone... and I miss her so much! >_<
hmmm... and today, I thought I was late for our first subject which is CISCO...
that subject is from 7am to 12nn, and If I didn't attend that class... that would be a big regret -_-...
and guess what? our prof there didn't arrive at all!
We were like waiting there for 1 and a half hour... arghhh... >=<
So after a long wait, we decided to leave and visit Marianne at the hospital...
ee... we were so many we got scolded by the guard and the doctor :P
and... hmm... Krizzia alsocame to visit
and that afternoon, we didn't have class (again) on our Math9 subject... grrrr....
I was really expecting that I will meet our ex-Dean... our prof in that subject -_-...
ee.... and my 'Knight' was not around.. I didn't see him this morning and I thought he was absent....
I realize that I felt weak and down coz I didn't see my best riend and my knight today
but thank goodness he came for our last subject.... TuT
uwah... ahahaha! I feel so weird today... specially that feeling...
the feeling of not seeing someone... and missing that person...
I really feel incomplete without them T^T
ee... and then the thing that made my mood bad...
is that... our report for tomorrow is cancelled! #^%$##(adagmoe
argh... I'm soooooooo pissed off!!!
I did research for that report... and I didn't sleep well....
and we got scolded at the library becoz o that...
and then, we found our that our Prof in that subject will be replaced by another!!! ee!!! >:-O
uwah!!! after that I was in a bad mood and I don't want anyone to see me...
so instead of going home... I went to somewhere and run! rn and run as fast as I can to calm myself down -_-....
and now I am writing this in a net cafe... and the mouse pisses me off too...
and the keyboard... ee... like I was typing in a typewriter...
arrghh.... useless PC should be thrown away!!! XC
ok so til here... I wanna go home and sleep....
bye for now

Start of 2nd sem + speed painting in photoshop vid :D

Mood:

<-- yayz! extremely excited!

woah! So tomorrow is the start of my 3rd year 2nd sem

I'm totally... excited! and a bit nervous...

coz I haven't review anything! O_o

woah! I need to read my notes tonight... ^^

hmmm... yayz! I'll see my classmates and friends again!

and my Knight of course n_n

but... uwah... my bestfriend, Marianne, has a fever...

and she is not sure if she can come to school tomorrow :(

Poor her... I hope she'll get better soon -_-....

oh, by the way, at last! My very first speed painting in photoshop vid is here! :D

ahahah! I'm sooo proud! and I've been posting links everywhere online! ahahah! XD

ee... so like I promise, I'm going to post it here too n_n

Here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6Nfz2veIK4

ahehe... I hope (if anyone reads my blog) you'll watch it! X3

uwaah... I already have 33 views (4 from me) and 2 comments from my friends in deviantart :D

ahahah! I'm sooo really extremely happy! yayz! lololol XDDD

oukei so til here! I need to read my lectures and organize my things for tomorrow!

Bye-bee! O(^-^)o

about 'Knight'

Mood:
Inlove

uwahahah! yayz! XD

I'm posting something about Knight! 8D

oukei I'll tell you our story >_<

Yesh... from the very start! OwO

hmm... We've been classmates since 1st year high school...

and that time, he was our topnotcher

hmm... and he was promoted and got into the 1st section (we were in the 2nd section that time)

I really envy him that time... coz he got promoted... I wanted to be in the first section soo badly >.<

I didn't know that you can be promoted when you got into the 1st to 3rd place in class...

so I did my best in second year, and I really study hard...

Soon, my hardwork paid off

I was 3rd place in second year and I got into the first section 8D

hmm... 3rd year we became classmates again

but we're not really close that time.. and even when we're still 1st year -_-...

On our 4th year in high school, I went down into the second section again and he's on the 4th O_o

I think it's becoz of 'that' problem... I'm not telling anymore.. eeheh ^^;

But it's not that big problem... or maybe just a medium problem...

Hint? It's about a newspaper they wrote... and about our teachers that time O_o

Hm... and then College!

We became classmates again coz we're in the same course n_n

uwahahah! but still, we're not close that time...

It was until our second year in college...

He started saying 'things' to me... like jokes... etc. -_-...

He was just joking around and I know that... And I just ride along his jokes... wahahah! XD

But then in our 3rd year, we becaome a little closer to each other

We became groupmates in various subjects and activities

and we were like... always together XD

hw always help me when I have problems... and when I'm alone

the most unforgetable moment was when we had a seminar in SM Baliuag, Bulacan

On our way home, I was a bit depressed coz I didn't bought any souvenirs (only chocolates..)

and then at the bus, my friend, Glecy, gave me something

It was a cellphone... uhm... cloth (huh?) something... what do you call that again?

and it has a Naruto design -_-... (sorry for the english)

I was really happy coz I receive something! T^T

and then Glecy said it was not from her... but from my knight

I was really surprise he gave me something O_o

And on our way home... I was sooo sick becoz of the bus

and I my knight is worried about me...

He sat beside me and told me I can sleep at his shoulders...

uwaahhh... It was really romantic that time (even though I feel sick and fell asleep -_-..)

It really feels warm when someone cares for you TuT

I wanted to stop time that time...

ahahah! and then after that he started texting me

and when he went to SM NorthEdsa

and came back, he gave me a gaara keychain and a poster of hitman reborn OwO

hahha! He really know what I want! XD

but as a consequence he asked me to teach him in CISCO

We were waiting for our classmates that time, and we chat a bit

He really gave me inspiring words... like when I don't want to join the chess team in our college coz I'm not really good at chess

and he said that I should join becoz some others join even though they are not really good at what they were doing

I was inspired so next year I'll join the chess team for intrams n_n

hahah!

He inspire me alot... and made me change

He didn't know that I'm always looking at him and looked up on him

becoz I can see things on him that I didn't have

more likely, the attitudes that I don't have

He is responsible and hardworking

He is smart

He's not shy

He's not looking for a good face

He's sweet and kind

He doesn't say bad words (I think)

He's a religious person

He's a gentleman

He's not selfish

He's friendly

and most of all, He cares for me alot

things and attitudes that I lack

Sometimes I think, do I deserve him?

eheheh... I want to be like him

and I look up on him n_n

*sigh... ahahah! I don't know if this is really love... or just a crush... -_-"

and I don't know if, he is still joking around

uwahh... I'm confused!

but sometimes... I really miss him... so much...

and when he's beside me.. I get really nervous... and blush alot.... OwO

aheheh... hmm.. but sometimes I think... that he is just like Prince (the one who made me trust him but in the end betrays me... yes his true name is prince... but let just call him that -_-)

but as time flies... the more I know him (my knight)... the more I feel... like... my heart beats fast... I c an't explain -_-...

When he's around and when he's near me... and when I think of him... My heart beats sooo fast it really hurts...

ee... yesh.. I prefer a 'knight in shining armor' than a 'prince charming' n_n

coz a prince just rely on his looks and on his soldiers...

in reality he's nothing but a pony... a sore loser and a coward... (bwhahahah) >:-)

but a knight... he can save you... he's willing to risk his life and he is a responsible person

he may not be rich, but he can give you his love and care... aww... ^w^

ahahah! so, til here

but our story... or his story here... will not end.. here.... (what?!)

our story is meant to be continued...

yesh... meant to be.... n_n

I hope so... -_-...

damn pc >:O

Mood:


Reimei is irritated!


ugh, I hate my PC!!! >:-O
It's sooooo slow!!!
I wanna throw it out the window!!!
ee... I want a new CPU... a pentium 4! or a dual core! or maybe a quadcore!!! >_<
*sigh... If only I have money... uhuhhu T^T
hmm... oukei enough ranting... -_-...
Sorry I didn't update yesterday...
You see, yesterday I was uhm making a video about coloring using photoshop... and I wanna upload it on youtube...
uwaahhh... atlast! This 3rd attempt really worked out! TuT
Camstudio worked out this time
I was able to save my process! yayz! O(^w^)o
The only thing I need to do now is to edit it and insert a song using windows movie maker n_n
And upload to youtube of course
uwahahah! I'm sooo very excited to upload it later...
I'll edit it at the nearest net cafe and upload it asap!
I can't edit it in here coz of my s2pid, slow and old run-down irritating pc... >:O
arrghhh....
hmmm... by the way, did I already tell you about my 'Knight'?
I already wrote that I'll be writing here why I call him 'Knight' n_n
hmm... maybe in my next entry... oukei I'll post it on today... n_n

woah! a subbie in deviantart and some updates!

Mood:
<-- Overjoy

yay! I was really shocked! O_o

My friend in deviantart, Snaaaake, gave me a 3 month subbie! :D yay! XD

I'm really really really happy right now!!! wowowow!!! XDDD

And he said that he wanted to commission me! errr... oh... I already wrote this... aheheh ^^;

Well anyway, now, I'm a full-pledged (what?) scholar now! as in... FULL SCHOLAR! University scholar! NO MORE TUITION FEES! yay! O(^-^)o

Weeehhh!!! and then today, I went to school for my other scholarship... and I was sooo happy I found out that it is legal (eh?) to have 2 scholarships... yesh! yay!!! XD

hmmm... today I also helped my classmates to apply to those scholarships... ee... now I have companions! TuT

and... I also got to see my secret crush... and I also helped him to apply for scholarship... TuT

uwaaahhh! I'm overjoyed! :D

hmmm... Wanna know who my secret crush is? hmm... I wrote his name on the previous entry... ee... XD

Let's just call him 'Knight'... coz he is my knight in shining armor :D

I'll tell you why I call him knight... some time... eheheh n_n

ok back to the topic... well, today, me and my bestfriend, Marianne, ate at KFC today... again... just like yesterday... n_n

coz we saw our friend, Krizzia, today... She treat us! eheheh... like, we receive P25.00 from her... aww... n_n

ee... I really miss her badly... T^T

hmm... What more...?

oh... Marianne also bought a dvd of the latest episodes of Naruto Shippuden and I'm going to borrow it next week! yayz! O(^-^)o

hmmm... and my Knight walked with me home... err... until I ride a tricycle... n_n

and.. woah! almost forgot... It's my mom's birthday today! :D

She's 43 years old now! eheheh n_n

and my gift for her? a pair of slippers! eheheh ^^"

It's really cheap... but she liked it anyway :D

so til here! gotta go!

take care!

Bye-bee!!! XD

I did my best... :'(

Mood:
<-- Sad and Down


ee... yesh... I'm sad and I feel totally down...
Evcn though I said that I did my best and I will not regret anything..., I still feel sad... :(
I didn't win anything on the halloween contest on deviantart T-T
and what's worse is I didn't win on any of those 2 contests... not even a honorable mention... TT-TT
I feel like a sore loser... -_-"
I really expected that I would win... even in just one... but... wah! nothing!
Huhuh... I wanna cry... but I don't want others to see my weakness...
sigh... so I'm keeping this to myself...
Gah! I want to improve so much!
Maybe if I change my artstyle, something will change too
But I don't want to, coz that wouldn't be me... I wanna stick to my present style... -_-...
But on the otther hand... If I will not change, nothing will...
Huhuh... I need some inspiration... I hope I'll find one T-T
Hmm.... I decided to not submit anything in deviantart this week... coz I totally feel down...
I want to draw... but I'm having an art block... one reason is because of those 2 contests...
ee... I'm cheering myself up... But it's not working!
I keep telling myself that 'There's still next time!' and 'Don't think too much about it, It's just a contest'
But... wah! I can't easily get over it! XC
I saw some inspirational quotes... which made my feeling a little comforable...
It says that ' You'll fin hope in despair, those who does not experienced sorrow cannot appreciate joy'
ee... I found this when one of my friends on friendster posted this on the bulletin... I feel a bit relieved :)
and then my horoscope told me that
'It might feel as if your relationship is built like a house of cards -- it's shaping up to be quite impressive, but one slight breeze or jiggle could send it all tumbling down. This sense of insecurity can be tricky to deal with. So instead of letting yourself concentrate on the bad things that could happen, focus all that energy on what's going right. Don't take anything for granted: what is meant to be will be.'
Kinda inspiring isn't it? :)
wah... I think I still need some time to recover... and when I'm ready, you'll see a better and more stronger me n_n