a very VERY very special day n_n

Mood:

--> So deeply inlove

Yesh... This day is a very VERY very special day for me... and for my knight...

coz this is the day, February 27, 2010... 1:34pm... at the topmost floor of the college of education bldg at Lucinda Campus, Tarlac State University, Tarlac City, we became... an official couple n_n

err... aheheh... suprise suprise! ahahah XDDD

hmm... it started like this...

hmm... we went at school to take pics for our multimedia project... and then... blah blah yada yada.. ( I want to write the best part so I'll pass) n_n

and so, we decided to go to Lucinda campus to take pics... hm...

while we were charging the battery of my digicam, me and my Knight decided to... err... explore the educ bldg... eheheh ^^;

and so, we leave Glecy, Marianne, Nimfa and Joan there... there there.. I don't know where orz..

hm... we went to the top floor of the bldg., and up there was a very very very beautiful scene...

I was like... wow... It was really soooooo amazing...

I see how wide the whole world is O_O

aheheh... hmm... my gawd... it's so, wonderful

like, I can see the sky so clearly, and the so wide landscape... lolz (sorry bad grammar... orz)

hmm... we sat there coz it was so quiet... and there was no one around.. just the two of us

and coz we were tired of walking and going up there ehehe ^^

hmm... he then hold my hand, and ask me what was the meaning of 'Daisuki desu'

coz, yesterday, I gave him a letter and another one with that word

and he don't know the meaning of it, coz it's japanese n_n

hmm... I was really shy that time coz... idk... coz I'm nervous I think

but he really wanted me to say it,... and soo...

but I'm really nervous... and embarassed (what?)

and after a very long time, he decided to say it again

to say that he loves me... and that he really really really loves me... XD

aheheh... he's voice is still echoing inside my head hahah!

so I write it on his had... the letter 'I', and symbol heart, and the last letter 'U'...

he got excited (I think)... ahehhe... and like... hm... so happy... he's so cute hahah! XD

and then he look at my eyes... and I was like looking the other way... eheh

hm... after that, he said that he'll be more happy if I said it straight to him... in front of him... from my very own lips... ee XD

hmm... I want him to be happy so I said it... that... I love him too... in a very very very slow tone... like... he said it first before me... something like that n_n

and he was so happy he asked me if we're now a couple...

I was shocked... but at the same time happy...

we promise each other to keep it a secret from everyone... including our parents, friends... and everyone around

that is our very own secret... just the two of us knowing that... aheheh

( I hope no one will ever read this... specially mom... or else I'm so doomed O_O)

then he kissed me on my cheeks.. he asked me to kiss him too

But I was like, so aggresive (what the hell?) that time I want him to kiss me... on the lips... orz *blushes

and then, yesh... he kissed me... on my lips... like... for 10 seconds... and I was like, woah...

his lips, was sooo soft... and I want to kiss him more... so we kiss for the second time... longer than the first

hmm... my heart beats so fast it really hurts that time... O_O

and I hug him... and he hug me too

he thank me for loving him... and I felt the same way to him...

even though I want to say those things, no words came out my mouth

but I wsih he felt it anyways

I'm his first, and he want me to be his last...

and I want the same thing too

ee...then, we decided to call each other 'Yam'...

err... I donm't know why... he's the one who said it anyway ^^

It's a really funny name to call each other, and weird at the same time hahah XD

but it's cute X3

hmm... I really think he's sooo cute that time..

when I was looking on his eyes, I really fell inlove...

ahahah... isn't it weird?

I'm in love... so deeply inlove...

I don't want this feeling to go away...

I want to, share the good and bad times with him

Always with him... I want that...

I really really really love him

I said it to him while I hug him so tight

and then, when we decided to leave, I kiss him again while walking (woah I was so aggresive, don't you think? O_O)

and hug him tightly... so tight... that I don't want to let him go... and I mwant to stop time

hm... but then, the others are waiting for us aheheh...

before we went downstairs, he asked for one last kiss

and that kiss, was like... so sweet...

he kiss me like... he don't want to let it go hahah!

and me too, I want to stop time that time... and kiss him crazily

yesh... I'm crazily inlove...

I'm so weird... this feeling is sooo weird... everythings weird

and I can't believe I receive my first, second, third and fourth kiss that time

and I'm sooo happy coz it's from him

I love it, this feeling... I want to cry... tears of joy...

I wish, we can still do that sometime...

I want him to feel the same feelings I did

so... that's that... our love story...

This is not the end... but the beginning of our very long journey

It's going to be tough, but I wish our relationship will be strong

and I wish we can be stronger...

ahhehe...

so til here!

by the way, sorry for not updating for almost 2 months O_O

lots of things happened... apart from that, Iw as so busy and everything

gonna tell you this later...

for now, I want to daydream... and think back what happened...

bye-bee!

Happy New Year 2010! + Yosh! 2 weeks update

'kay so I'll be posting 2 weeks update, from December 21st to 30th ^^;

December 21, 2009 - Monday

hmm... again, I can't remember... so bare with it! XC

December 22, 2009 - Tuesday

Yesh I cannot forget abou this day :D
This day my Knight and I went shopping for me to buy Christmas gifts for everyone ^^
hmm... So it started like this
At first, I didn't tell my mom that my Knight will accompany me
But just so she noticed that I'm preparing to go somewhere
So I just said the truth
I thought she'll be angry, but then she just agree and all
hmm... My mom accompany me to school, where me and my Knight will meet
After waiting, I finally saw my Knight
And it's really funny he's hiding coz he's scared to mom
(coz he didn't know that mom knew we will be together heheh)
hmm... we were laughing and all
And my classmate, Tin, saw me, my knight and mom together
ahaha... hmm... I expect issues in school will spread at the start of class
Then Mom and I seperate ways
She's going to the market, and me and my knight will go to mall to buy gifts ^^
hmm... I thought of giving dad a tshirt, ark a chocolate and my sis a cellphone bag(?)
Sis already had a gift for mom, so she ask me not to buy one anymore,
so I have to buy one for dad
(we'll divide it between the two of us hehhe)
hmm... after we bought a gift for dad, I decided not to buy chocolates for ark (my lil bro)
I'll just buy him a box of sprinkles... ahehhe...
hmmm... and then we went to metrotown mall to buy my gift for sis
and at the 3rd floor we went to wrap the gifts
hmm... My knight bought 4 siomai, coz he doesn't have money ehehe
He said it was really spicy, so he just ate one and give the rest to me
ahahah! I was glad coz he then bought ice cream :D
hmm... what more happened?
He accompany me to buy some personal stuffs
Like lotion, cotton etc.
We were talking to each other while walking, and it's really great
I was never bored while we were walking, even if we walk a long way :)
at pass 2pm he walked me home
Mom was not home that time so he hadn't talked to her
And then we bid goodbye...
He texted me saying he was ashamed coz I was so hungry when I was with him
But I thought it's ok, it's really fun to be with him though ^^

December 23, 2009 - Wednesday

It's the death anniversary of my aunt Janet
So nobody should be too happy today
hmm... It's also Glecy's relatives' baptism today
They invited me but I insisted
I didn't texted them coz they'll just annoy me

December 24, 2009 - Thursday

One day before Christmas!
Actually we're going to celebrate or noche buena at midnight today ^^
Yesh I'm totally excited XD
I was up finishing my artwork!
(gonna post it later heheh)
and then I'll send it via friendster to my friends ^^
actually, that artwork is my gift for Papa Jesus
who is the birthday celebrant tomorrow
hmm... I'm dedicating it to Him for the talent He gave me ^^
hmm... then near midnight, my friends texted me
Greeting me Merry Christmas and all ^^
aheheh... but sad to say I didn't reply (no load orz)
I help in the preparation of foods
Like, I look for the barbeque ^^
hmm... everyone was so busy
Mom and Dad and Ark were busy sleeping
And sis, is surfing the net I think
ee... I wish everyone would wake up for the noche buena
I went outside and write a letter for Jesus through text (and still on my cellphone drafts heheh)
They did wake up, 30 minutes late -_-............
But it's ok, we exchanged gifts and all
I receive a tshirt with a very cute design, a soap, and undies from mom
ahahah! sis, ark and dad didn't give me anything but its ok ^^
hmm... after that sleep time
I had fun this day ehhe

December 25, 2009 - Friday

The day Papa Jesus came to earth! :D
I did uploaded my gift for him yesterday ehehe
hmm..., today, it's really like a normal day
But no one should be fighting...
hmm... what more...
there's still lots of kids going to houses and carol
nobody should be greedy so mom and dad gave them something hehhe

December 26, 2009 - Saturday

Crap! It's Jessica's birthday today!
Actually, it's her debut O_O
I thought it's going to be tomorrow
Glcy texted me, asking if I'll come
But Marianne said she will not, so I decided not to go too
I didn't reply on Glecy's text, nor answer her calls
(I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooo rude orz)

December 27, 2009 - Sunday

Yet another occasion I didn't attend: our Christmas/Year end party as a class
Crap! I thought it was going to be swimming but I guess wrong -_-...
sigh... I just told them that mom ddn't allow me, so I didn't go
and we didn't went to church too -_-...

December 28 - 30, 2009 - Monday - Wednesday

Nothing much...coz I really don't remember heheh
I just remeber that we had a group meeting for our SAD subject
research proposal or something
and my knight and I had a fight
coz I was in a bad mood
And he was calling the later days but I didn't answer his calls
He got mad when I texted something
Like, I was pissed off and he thought he was annoying me
But then we made things up
He texted first, apologizing for being so annoying
and I apologize for being hot tempered...
He went to our house to get some lectures coz he'll review too
He was with his friend, and he gave me siomai heheh
hmm... I was happy seeing him again at this time

hmm... 'kay so til here for now,
I'm kinda lazy.............
I'm watching K-ON! eheheh
bye-bee!

OMG! update from Dec 16 T^T

Soooo sorry for not updating til now T^T
I've been sooo lazy opening my blogger.... -__-....
Well anyways, I'll complete my update from Dec.16 up to present
Just a summary, so bare with it *-*

December 16, 2009 - Wednesday

Nothing much happened,
I just sleep becoz of exhaustion and tiredness
hmm... or... uwah! I can't remember what I did this day -_-...
Gome

December 17, 2009 - Thursday

Hmmm... Today the only important thing happened was my Knight calling me on my cellphone
It was our first conversation on the phone, how can I forget? 8D
He asked me if I can come to their church on saturday
I said I should ask my parents first for their approval
and he said that he'll be the one to tell,
He'll be visiting me tomorrow to tell my parents about that
Yesh I was soooo nervous
It will be the first time a suitor would visit (suitor?)
hmm... But then that night I told my parents if they will allow to go
My dad agreed, but my mom didn't
By the way, Knight's religion is Iglesia ni Cristo (INC)
and we are Born again
Two very, err I mean sorta, different religions -_-...
My mom doesn't want me to change religions so she didn't allow me -_-...
and coz INC's don't celebrate Christmas, and they have too many don'ts on their religion
Hmm... I was thinking if I should go or not
And I know that I should be making the decision by myself
So, I texted my Knight, like, they didn't allow me something like that
But it wasn't direct
And then I go to sleep -_- zzzZZZ

December 18, 2009 - Friday

Today is the day my Knight will be visiting me home
My dad left early coz he'll get his pension at... I think AFPSLAI
I took a bath early, like 6 or 7
My Knight was here at 8:30 am, coz I asked him to come early ^^;
Hmm... We first talked outside, coz mom is in the CR
I told him that my mom doesn't agree, but he said he'll still try to ask their permission
I also said that dad is not home, and he got more nervous coz he is more comfortable talking to dad ^^
hmm... after that, we went in and took a seat, right beside each other
Like we're going to say something really important (I was thinking too many things like it's about marriage or such haahah!)
OMG I was really nervous that time O_o
And I don't know how to entertain visitors!
I wasn't talking at all!
Anyways, Mom said to him directly what she wanted to say
About the religions and such
I felt pity for my Knight... Coz he got rejected (?) by my parents... about the saturday event.... --;
I wasn't really looking at them, I looked at the TV and at the other side away from them
And then they were talking about the two of us, our relationship, etc.
Woah! Mom is really something! She thought of things too much O_O
After the very long and heart-throbing conversation, Mom left us to have time talking with each other
I wasn't really talking, coz we're in our house and sis and lil bro might hear hahah!
We were just watching TV
But then my Knight was the one talking to me
He said things like jokes and such
hmm... But I think he's sad coz of the result
Anyway, he saw my pic when I ws grade 1
And he said that I was cute! X3
He saw a rubic's cube and tried to solve it
He even teached me the tricks and how to solve it
My feeling of nervousness was gone, And we were talking to each other in a normal way
We also watched Hunter X Hunter and Bleach
After that he bid goodbye... hmm... coz it's pass 10
I walked him outside coz I still want to talk with him about what happened
And he said if it's ok with me, I can accompany him til TFBC (which is very far from home)
I said it's ok coz I was going to say something though (and I want to be with him for a little longer)
We talked about things... and about the suitor thing
He said that he'll wait until we graduated
And until I can decide for my own
Aww... the sweetest thing I heard this day :)
hmm... I asked him about his lovelife
And he openly told me about it
hmm... should I, write it? or maybe on another journal about him next time ^^
And then Mom saw us sitting at the bakery
My Knight apologize coz of that...
And I got scolded coz we were there
Mom said she gave us time to talk at home
I said that I can't really talk there coz I feel like it
and then.... there... phew! It's all finish
His first visit on his own is really sweet
And I'm glad he had the courage to do that :)

December 19, 2009 - Saturday

Coz I wasn't able to go to my Knight's church, I think I was at home all day
Gah! Can't remember anything happened this day orz -_-...

December 20, 2009 - Sunday

hmm... can't remember this one again -_-...
Is it, the Christmas party on our subdivision???
ee... can't really remember (needs memory supliment)
I just can't remember anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But one thing is sure, we didn't go to church coz of some reason -_-.....

'kay so I guess til here for now
My laziness kills me again -_-...
Gonna update tomorrow, promise!!!

continuation of Socialization '09

So this is the continuation of my entry yesterday... eheheh

hmm... so where were we?
hmm... Did I already told you about cart city?
and we walked like, from there to near metrotown?
yeah, I was in my bad mood... -_-...
Becoz I was sooo sleepy and tired otl
hmm... and then they (my classmates) decided to bring us to Stephen's boarding house
and so, Bart, Baldo, Marianne, Glecy, Knight and I went there
I felt Bart was so worried about us
Even though he wants to be with those guys, he didn't go
He's like a big bro to me I guess :)
hmm... after that, uwah... I feel so much comfortable and I lay down of exhaustment
ahahah... and I saw a big pink bear again... I hugged it and uwaahh... I felt so tired
But they opened the TV and I asked them to turn the channel on cartoon network
We watched Naruto... ahahah XD
hmm... after that, my Knight told us that he had to go...
And I bid goodbye...
hmm... yesh I don't want him to go rather, I want him to stay with us on our overnight there
But we had no choice but to just bid goodbye I guess
and then I went to the CR to wash my face
My friends said I was sooo slow
and then those guys came
And when I finish washing my face, I asked if Bart and Knight already went out
But they said they were still there
ahahah! yesh, I was really happy my Knight was still there
I really want him to guard me... ahahah :D
and then we went to the second floor coz we will sleep there
and then Knight bid goodbye for the 2nd time... and yes he will already went home that time
hmm... so I think maybe I'll just sleep coz I'm tired
But then, I charged my cellphone coz I'm battery empty
Glecy and Marianne were already tired and sleeping sound
I can't sleep, so when Bart went to our room, we tell stories and such
We were talking about my Knight
He said that he was a nice person etc
and I agree with that :)
hmm... He gave me some advices, and I was like, agreeing to whatever he says
Yesh I was serious talking to him
I even told him all the things Knight said to me
and then, he said that I should accept Knight's feelings for me
I didn't know that Marianne was still awake and I think she heard our conversation
and then she joined our story telling
and the topic jumped from there to scary stories
They were really on to it... Telling creepy and scary stuffs
I hate scary stuffs, so I don't want to listen anymore
And I always turn on the lights on my cellphone
It was already, 2am in the morning I think
And then Camilo comes in, telling his experiences
They were really scary, and up to this point I can't forget about them -_-"...
sigh... and then after that, we decided to sleep
I think I sleep for an hour...
ok so that ends the socials
I'll continue this on my entry for December 16
ahehhe... so, chao! :D

Socialization 2009!!! sigh -_-...

ok so this entry is about the socials and the happenings last December 15, 2009:

December 15, 2009 - Tuesday

Woah! Yeah! The day of our socialization has finally arrived! O(^-^)o
ahihihi... Yeah... suuuuuper excited! XD even though I was really exhausted yesterday -_-...
hmm... But first, we had a class on our Rizal subject
We check some papers... and then no more classes! woot! :D
hmm... But then I don't want to go home yet... coz It's still 9:30 am
And Mom and I had a fight -_-...
My Knight told me to help him buy a gift for their exchange gift on their org
And so we went to Metrotown to buy the doll we saw last time
We walked from school to there... and from there to school... ahehhe... -_-...
hmm... and then on our way to my house, we saw Baldo near the net cafe near the school (?)
He wanted to borrow my lectures in multimedia, so we went there for a while to give him that
And there I saw Marianne, Glecy and Tin hanging around... and some of my classmates of course
I was like, *gulp... oh no... -_-"
They saw us together....
You know why I don't like them to see us together?
It's becoz they'll just tease us
And my 3 friends, will think I prefer to be with my Knight rather than with them
They do really misunderstand me when it comes to Knight -_-...
ugh... specially Glecy -_-...
hmm... But thank goodness they didn't say anything
and just treated me ordinarily
after that, my Knight walked me home
He asked me if he can come to my house,
but I insisted, I told him about the fight with my mom
So, I went home and just sleep
I saw my mom but I didn't talk
I told my mom about the overnight... and she just said yes
hmm... what more...
At 5pm my Knight went at my house... coz he''ll pick me up ^^
And he gave me his present to me
It's the ryoma doll I really want from the UFO catcher we saw at the mall...
aww... sooo sweet! XD
And I was shocked coz Glecy and Marianne went too
But I thought it would be more ok if they went with him ^^
So, they told my mom about the overnight and about the socials
Oh by the way, I wore a miniskirt and I was a total girly... eheh - -,
But my mom said to change my skirt into pants... which I don't want
She convinced me when Glecy told me to just change when we're at school
hmm... I was changing in my room
and mom and dad asked so many things from my knight
yesh I heard everything... coz my room has a balcony so I can hear eveything whenever people are at the sala
hmm... and then after that, we went to Jo's boarding house
coz Marianne and Glecy wants to change clothes
My Knight saw this white fluffy big bear that I longed for
He was hugging it... and I feel envious so I snatched it and hug it
uwah... I really want something like that D:
Me and my Knight were fooling around giving names to that bear
And I named it... "popo" XD
Coz there's a pooh name on the tag on its back
ahahah! my friends said thatme and my knight were sooo sweet that time XD
then Marianne, Glecy and I went to the mall to buy foods
My knight didn't want to go... I think coz he doesn't have money... -_-...
But then I returned coz my bag is sooo heavy
and u know what happened?
When I was putting some of my cloths in Glecy's paperbag,
my bra suddenly jumped from my bag O_O
woah! good thing my knight was not looking.... phew! -_-....
I was laughing hard when I got outside the room
and I told Marianne and Glecy what happened
At the mall, I treated them with siomai
course I didn't treated them on my birthday, so I thought now's the time to treat them
When we came back to the boarding house, me and my knight listened to my friends mp4
The song was 'a thousand miles' which is one of my fav songs n_n
and then, 7pm, we went to the gym for the socials
My knight is right beside me... and I'm sooo happy coz this will be the first time we'll watch the socials together :D
hmm.... We enjoyed the socials n_n
Coz we're fooling around, laughing and telling stories together
ahahah! It's really fun! and I wasn't bored :)
and there was this time when he put his head on my shoulder
My heart beated so fast I was about to explode
I really don't know the feeling... It just suddenly came...
after the awarding... it's the disco
but then, he doesn't want to participate in the disco
I was relieved coz I don't want it either
He's such a good boy :)
hmm... after the socials... the plan is to go to stephen's boarding house and sleep
But they had another plan
coz Stephen and his girlfriend wants to go to cart city so they'll not go to the boarding house yet
We were forced to come with them
My Knight was very worried, and told me if my mom knew about this, she would get angry
I told him if it's ok for him to come
and yes he did come with us, co I think he's worried about me
There we saw our classmates drinking beer
My knight doesn't want to drink so we went away from them
Our classmates saw us and they were teasing us again
We didn't come inside coz they were going out there already
So now the plan was to go to stephen's place for our sake
I was sooo pissed off coz we've been walking and I feel sleepy
yesh I was in my worst mood again
ugh... ok so I'm tired writing... I'll just continue this tomorrow kay -_-....

Another week of not updating -_-...

ok so starting from December 12 to December 14
the rest I will put tomorrow -_-
So here it is!:

December 12, 2009 - Saturday

Yesh! It's my birthday ^^
But, woah! I had a very bad day!!
Anyhow..., I was kinda satisfied early morning :D
Coz the first person to greet me (besides my sis) is my Knight :)
aww... so sweet! XD
and so on and so fort ^^
the only thing that bothers me was my bestfriends didn't greeted me at all :(
hmm... but anyway,
today we attended a christmas party at Romjin
with the whole family of course
yesh! swimming! I was soooo excited XD
But then, I was irritated coz the Janitor there cut the electricity when I was charging my cellphone
WTF?! He did that on purpose!!!
arrggh... hateful creature should die!!!
what a moron!!! that s2peed low level person!!
He made my day worst!!! XC
I hate him forever!!!!
hmm... and then I thought of revenge
nyahahah!! I did throw trash here and there and everywhere! *evil laugh
hmm... and then I swam here and there... and everywhere... lol
ugh... but I didn't enjoy it... coz there were sooo many people XC
and there were kids having phlegm (?) in their nose... O_o
eww eww eww,,,
ugh... what a day!!!
and then I got to text my knight... and I texted my bestfriend coz I asked her if we will sleep at Stephen's place on socials
and then she replied, saying that she want to greet me exactly 12 midnight so that she's the one to greet me last
aww... I was touched... ahihihi
I was happy coz I thought she forgot my birthday :')
But then again she just wanted to suprise me X)

December 13,2009 - Sunday

Yesh another Christmas Party swimming XD
And today it's with the PTA officers in our college, CCS
We waited at Mcdonalds
and guess what, the other PTA officer had the same last name with my Knight O_o
I thought it was his Dad...
And so, I was nervous O_o
hmm... when he arrived, he was with a little girl
I thought it was my Knight's lil sis
But then when my dad asked him about his son
He said that his son was in 4th year
And I asked that little girl, named Shari, if she had an older bro
She said she doesn't have... So I was satisfied that that man wasn't his dad
Phew... I thought I met his dad in real!
But then again I was dissapointed... Coz I thought I can go swimming with my Knight -_-...
hmm... yesh! there were soooo many foods!!! nomnomnom :)
And my instructor in Management, Ma'am Rona, was with us
Coz she was the secretary in CCS PTA
hmm... woah! the view on top of the slide was sooo beautiful! :D
I was like there for a couple of times... and a couple of minutes...
nyahahahah! I learn to swim the mermaid swim XD
ee... and I guess, I enjoyed this day more than yesterday
I wish that this day was my birthday :)

December 14, 2009 - Monday

woah! I've been busy this couple of days...
Today was my interview for my OJT O_o
I was very nervous... *ba-dump ba-dump
And I was kinda not comfortable with my dress...
Corporate attire orz -_-...
hmm... and then my classmates saw me with that
they said that, I look different or some sort
woah! yesh! A total makeover! :-O
and then we went to Gerona, the place were we have our OJT
ee... yesh, 1st day I was late -_-...
and then, I saw the school
I look weird in the eyes of the students there O_o
ee... and then I met the principal
She was nice... but she said that I was assigned in a different task.. different from my classmates -_-...
hmm... I was assigned in an Internet cafe/Digital Studio
And now, the interview...
Woah! I lack english and communication skills... ahahah!
I was speaking in tagalog orz
Epic fail! otl
But my work was just sooo easy XD
I'm just making a web for their net cafe... in a free web hosting site
ahahah! yay! I already did that on our web engrng subject so it's easy-easy for me XD
hmm... but half day, from 9am to 12nn, I had a very bad feeling -_-
I don't feel so well, I feel like vomiting and my head is spinning
I was going to asked for a time out but I was very shy
And it's my first day though
but well, I did manage to overcome that
and I ate lunch with my friends
they asked their boss if I can be in their team
But he refused, so I had to go back to the net cafe
I was really on it the other half day
I did 5 layouts... and I impressed my boss :)
hmm... they were nice people there
and I learned some photoshop techniques

A week update

woah! I didn't update for a week! O_o hmm... so now I'll post an update for each day

December 5,2009 - Saturday

Our puppy, Chimpay, is not going to be here anymore...
My parents decided to give it to our relatives
yeah it's kinda sad coz I'll miss her T^T
I really like having a pet... specially a puppy
And I did made more memories with her
I'll miss the times when we play together,
and when she's eating
and when she's wiggling her tail XD
aww... Now I'm missing her T^T
but it's ok... I think they will take care of her the same way we did :)

December 6,2009 - Sunday

We went to church with my lola and autie
My aunt has a cancer...
I saw her with a face mask
And her head is covered, I think she wore a wig
Yeah, she's undergoing kimotheraphy
If anyone does read this blog pls pray for her
BTW, she gave me and my sis bracelets
hmm... and then after that we went to KFC to eat :)

December 7, 2009 - Monday

Nothing much happened...
or... uwah... I don't remember what happened anymore -_-...
I think, I was drawing something
For the contests that I joined in deviantart :P

December 8, 2009 - Tuesday

Our prof in Rizal told us that we'll be having our first quiz on thursday
And we had our quiz in management and automata
hmm... I was really into studying that time
What more happened... hmm.. nothing much I think
My Knight didn't walked me home... I was kinda sad
I was with Bart (chouji) that time,
I told him what I feel for my Knight
I hope he'll never say it to him

December 9,2009 - Wednesday

We still waited for our prof in CISCO for like, an hour or more
And when he arrived and opened the lab, lefted us doing nothing
Then after a few minutes, he just want us to pass our certificates and then leave
What the?! I think I will have to self study this time -_-...
what a pain...
And then my friends bought sun sim cards
It's very cheap so I decided to buy too
hmm... after class, I went to the library and return the book I borrowed
I was like shocked a bit coz my knight followed me
but just to photocopy my lectures in rizal
And then after that he asked me if he can walk me home
His friend, Musni, was like joking around
He's bullying us... saying things like this and that
My knight was really quite that time
And I was pissed off
I refuse, I just said that I'll have to render service in the library
And then I bid goodbye and he just said nothing
I was really hurt
But I just thought I have to render the service in the library and just focus on the more important thing
The librarian said that they got 2 student assistants so they're not acceptig anymore
So I went to OSA and got accepted there as a student assistant
I was not like doing anything there, just sitting til 6pm
And at 6 I went home alone and sad...
Its dark and I was like walking so slow
I was thinking if my knight is really taking me for granted

December 10, 2009 - Thursday

So the day of the quiz in Rizal arrived
I didn't sleep last night, I was doing something
Coloring my entry for friendship contest in deviantart
and then reviewed a little
So I was not really on myself
we had no class on management
And I decided to went home coz we had an assignment on automata
I hate some of my classmates..
they always rely on me whenever we have homeworks
so I said that I still have no assignment
It's just my excuse so that they'll not copy mine
hmm... and then, my knight is ignoring me again
I really want him to walk me home
But he had a meeting in Ssite -_-...
ugh, I know he should be doing those things first but
I can't stop myself from not being angry
Yeah I know he's not my boyfriend
but, I really want someone to accompany me
He thought I'll render service in OSA
but I was down that time I decided not go there

December 11,2009 - Friday

1 day before my birthday
And today is Marianne's monthsary with his bf
I feel nothing for my birthday
on my pst bdays, I was really excited when my bday comes
but now it's feels different
I wasn't excited at all
I don't want to grow old
I wanted to be 18 for so long
But what can I do, I can't stop time
So I have to accept it -_-..
hmm... we were the first batch in our multimedia subject
so we went our for lunch 10pm
My knight was in second batch, but he switch in 1st
He asked me if I'm free for 10pm
But I said that Mom and I have someplace to go
He said if he can come along
but I said, he can't coz I think we'll be going somewhere and we will be taking long
He insisted, he wants me to go with him at lucinda at 11
Coz there will be a meeting or some sort
for there religion, Iglesia ni Cristo
He accomapny me to the phonebooth coz I'll call my Mom
I told her that it's my freetime
And she said to wait for her at magicstar til 10:30
My knight then accompany me to magicstar
We were eating at the foodcourt
yesh my anger at him went away
we were laughing and telling stories etc
Like somebody already confess feelings for him
And about things like religions
I was really happy when I'm with him
after that he said that he was serious about me
And then, he express his feelings for me
I was shocked that time
He said that he like me, but there is this one reason preventing his feelings for me
He said that it's becoz of his religion
Coz, if somebody saw him having a relationship with someone who has a different religion
He will be exiled, or banished from his religion, something like that
I was then confused, I don't want that to happen
He said that he was really attached to his religion
And I understand that
But then he said if we'll be in a relationship, we can keep that as our secret
But I told him it would be his or our conscience if we do that
And I was really touched on the next thing he said
He said that, if it's that's the case, then he's willing to change religion
of course I don't want that to happen... He'll be sad...
He's so dedicated in their religion and now, becoz of me he'll leave
I now he doesn't mean to say that
But he's really serious about me
He even rejected the girl who liked her, even though they have the same religion
course I was confused, I can't decide whether to accept his feelings or not
I did think that if I turn to their religion, it would be fine but
I should also think of what my parents would like
there's too many angles, I can't think straight
He asked me if I like him too
I really want to tell him but, for now I can't
After what I heard,if I told him I liked him, what will happen?
And after all, I wasn't sure about my feelings
uwaah... what should I do?
The wrong way oo accept his feelings and be happy
Or the right way to refuse him and stay as friends
hmm... and then my mom arrived
but he (my knight) already left coz it's 11:15 already
the truth is, I'll be having my hair cut and I want it to be a secret
I was really thinking of what to do while my hair is being cutted
and while walking too
after that, I went to school,
yesh my classmates saw my new haircut
and my knight saw it too
I think my new hairstyle is cute
So, after class, my knight walked me home
but he said it's still early so he asked me if I want to go somewhere
so we went to enigma to look for PCs
and then we went to metrotown coz he'll look for something for their exchange gift
hmm... we walked like, 5 km or less
but I enjoy it coz he's with me
I guess, I really like him
but I can't stop thinking about the fact about their religion
and I was scared if someone might see us together
hmm.. and then we were walking home,
and we sat for a while coz we were both tired
I told him what Glecy told me
and that's not to trust people so easily
and he said that, it's up to me if I should trust him
and what he said at the foodcourt was his true feelings
I don't know if I should trust anymore
I told him that, if you were tricked on the past (about prince), it's not easy to trust anymore
and he undestand that
he said that if I need more time, then it's fine with him
and we should talk about that in the right time
yes I was relieved, but i think, how long can he wait?
I do trust him, I trust him with all my heart
and then after that, my dad saw us there, sitting on the bushes (?)
ee... he, my knight, panicked (I think)
and then he leave coz he was really shocked... --,
and then my dad asked me why didn't I introduced him?
I was like nervous that time so it doesn't come to my mind
At home my mom knew what happened,
I was on my room thinking of what he said and what should I do
I'm really happy coz I was with him for a long time
and becoz of the things he sais,
most importantly, he confess his feelings
But on the other hand, sad becoz of the hindrances
uwah... I don't know what to follow
my heart? or my mind?
it's really difficult....