2nd week in school starts with...

Mood:
bursting with... errr... can't explain the feeling orz


... a loud and noisy morning
yep... Mom is shouting here and there
coz my lil bro doesn't want to get up for school
and then, at school, Knight is a little grumpy coz of what happened yesterday
he was a bit angry to our group mates in thesis
but thank goodness it all end well
hmm... our first PHP tutorial was, ok...
a little intro to the subject
and then yada yada
classes ends at 2:30pm
so we went to the library at our college
but the room is full so we went at the student center
but it's hot and they decided to go to the main library
I don't wanna go there so instead I go to the OSA to renew my new scholarship 8D
but I end up not renewing(?) it coz I forgot my report of grades
and Knight was angry at me coz I didn't say to them that I was going to OSA instead of going to the main library
errr.. duh? I did say it when we were still at the student center
hmm.. so my mood gone worst again
and I ended up being harsh on him
and now I'm overbursting with sadness coz he's not texting me
sigh... I want to write this down
coz I can't tell this to anyone
but there's something good happened today
We received the money my Lolo sent me
yayz... --,
ok so til here
hope tomorrow's a good day
gudnyt!

2 days left before school starts

Mood:
Uberly excited :D

My last year in college will start 2 days from now
And I'm very excited n_n
I've been advance reading
CISCO 3 and PHP basics
And I'm sooo excited to buy a new book about PHP! eheheh XD
My lolo from America will be sending me money...
yeah! hahah! XDDD
hmmm.., This morning me and my Knight were texting
And I felt sooo happy coz we were texting about stuffs
ehehe... it's a long story... :D
hm, I really want to see him so much
and my classmates and friends too
errr, btw, while I was reading my Cisco notes, I drew an image at the back of it
eheheh... gonna show you later when I take a pic of it XP
hm, I draw when I'm bored... Can't take that off me I guess X)
Anyway, gotta go now!
I need to e-mail my Lolo
Ja neh! *waves

A week before school starts...

Mood:
Exhausted... duh -_-...


Yesh, one week before school starts again
And I'm on my last year in college...
Hmm, How should I put it...
I'm a bit excited, yet tired
And a little nervous
Coz it's going to be a long year
Lots of projects and hard work
OMG, I really get dizzy just of thinking about it @_@
Well, I have to overcome all of it
hmm, know what?
I've decided to do my very best this year
Coz it's my last year and,
I want to prove something
If I can, I want an award
I'm aiming for Cum Laude
It's gonna be hard but, I really want it
I'll start to change and start to manage my time
I want to be the model that I want to be
A person who can balance this... probably
And I don't want to regret not doing my best anymore
I want to graduate with a contentment and satisfaction
In order to do those things, I have some things to sacrifice
like, not going to draw or less time to sleep, less time reading manga and surfing with unrelated-to-school stuffs... something like that
hm, If I manage to excel this sem, maybe I can balance my time and have time with those stuffs...
what more... hmm...
Ok so til here!
BTW, look at my deviantart account --> http://reimei12.deviantart.com
I submitted my 'temporary goodbye art'
coz I will not be updating that account for a while
And, woah! I thought my subbie expired
I have another 6 months subbie! WHA-?!
hmm... someone good-hearted must have extended my subbie... teehee~!
Ok now, goodnyt blog! n_n

restless -__-...

Mood:
As the title says...


Yep... I've been soooooo restless...
No vacation...
And I'm tired of it...
Yesh I was expecting this but,
OMG! I didn't thought that my body wouldn't handle the stress!
and I made this day my day-off coz I feel so tired this morning...
ee... and I have to finish my service in OSA...
and OJT at CCS
more than 1 week befrore school starts again..
hmm... woah! Time flies so fast!!! O_O
hmm... what more...
oh, our monitor is broken
and we have to buy another one
and next week we'll have to freez the internet
so, so long... I think I'll be updating before school starts..
It sucks.. to have no internet connection at home
But we have to.. uhm... stay put..
and err... I have to sleep
Gudnyt!

Hate this...

Mood:
Sad and alone...

Sooo sorry I'm been away for soooo long... sooooooo long....
coz... I'm busy... sigh... again and again...
ok enough lying...
I haven't posted coz I'm lazy.... -_-...
hmm... but now...
I have something I want to tell you...
erm, who will read this???!
hmm... err... the truth is, I want to write my feelings
coz it's overflowing... I'm overflowing with sadness and loneliness
you see, it's like this...
I HATE PEOPLE!!!
they just talk or come to you when they need you...
and leave you when they don't need you...
like a broken toy or a worn out dress...
geez... they're soooo selfish!!!
family, friends, people... they're all the same
in the end, you'll find yourself alone...
s2pid people! you all should just vanish!
ugh...
Yeah... I want to cry...
I want to cry out loud!!!
I hate this feeling
I'm sooo lonely...
why is it that, when you need them, you can't find them
or can't see them
not even talk to them
please let me know if, there's someone like me...
out there... so that I won't feel this s2pid feeling
or at least, I won't feel that I'm the only one who have this feeling...
yes, I always say this things
I'm hurt again and again...
and I'm sick of it...
why can't I say things on my mind?!
why do I always care of what people think of me?!
why?!
I hate my life...
I hate it so much...
I want to change
or live another life...
I can't change myself
I'm soooo weak
I always think that I'm strong
Stronger than anybody else
but i'm wrong
I always think so positively...
but end up doing it negatively...
when will I change?!
I really want too..
I read a quote... and it goes like this...
"If something happens that you don't like, you can either learn to live with it, or try to change it..."
I really want to change it...
but I always end up living with how I see things that I don't like...
I'm a mere loser...
a weak person that can't do anything for herself
when will the time... when I'll mature
when will that time come?
will it ever come?...

been reading Dengeki Daisy...

for about 3 hours now... lololol XD

I'm sooo addicted over that! XD

and I haven't read manga (except for some) and watch anime for a while now.... -_-...

ee... I wanna sleep but, I want to continue reading 8D

so yeah, 'til here blog!

:D

about yesterday...

Mood:
uber happy :D

Hi there!
well, sorry for not posting yesterday.. you see...
we went out to search for an OJT... err... whatever
hmm... and yesterday we went to knight's house... eheheh XD
yay! we went there to have a small picnic
hmm... It really feels good to be with my friends.. specially with my knight :D
Marianne brought her guitar, named amller, along
and Glecy is with us too
err... hmm... we eat manga with bagoong... yummy! XD
and I get to take a nap and eat with my knight by my side n_n
hmm... what more...
yay! I got to experience piggyback ride with my knight
and he said that I'm heavy T^T
but well, that's ok... ahehhe n_n
hmm... what more... err... even if it's my 3rd time to visit his house,
I always get nervous when I meet his parents ^^"
e to, after the picnic, we went to his house again
and his Mom and Dad went to someplace
Glecy went home coz it's late, like 6:30 pm
and Marianne was singing at their sala... videoke alone
I went inside my knight's room... and it's very dark
He showed me a letter he received from someone that has a crush on him
And when I read that letter, I feel so... down... some feeling that made me sad
coz there's someone out there that loves him more than I do
I really feel it in that letter... her love for him
and it kinda reminds me of Marianne ^^"
hmm... but then, he picked me rather than that girl
and now, I realize that I should love him more than how much that girl loved him
I mean, I want to be deserving though... eheheh ^^"
And coz I don't want to lose him...
can I write this? hmmm..
I want to say that...
HE IS MINE! AND ONLY MINE
It's really selffish, but that's what I feel
hmm... after that, we decided to go home coz it's late
It's 7:30 pm.. and my mom just texted
I still have an errand to do
I have to deliver our grades in Retorika at our Prof's house
hmm... my knight said if it's ok for me to be accompanied by him
I refuse, coz it's late and he have something to do
But he really wants to, so I have no choice but to let him
and so, we ride a jeep
the worse part is, I don't remember our Prof's place O_O
We were lost, so we walked and walked until I remember where the place was
ahehhe... and then we delivered the grades safely, and went home
Oh by the way, when we were walking, he said that he'll miss me
coz we'll not see each other for a week (it's our vacation)
and I feel the same way..
but I just said that, it's only going to be a week and he should make himself busy...
but even so, he said that he'll still be missing me
hmm... that time, I want time to stop
and I want him to be always by my side
I really don't want to go home that time
And I wish we can be together all the time
while we were at the tricycle, he kissed me on my cheeks
telling he'll miss me again and again
I also said that I'll miss him
and kiss him on his cheeks for like, 10 seconds or so
hmm... he request for a kiss on my lips
and he kiss me for like a second... aheheh ^^"
but then, I think he wants it to be a longer one
so we kissed again, like 30 seconds, while at the tricycle
woah! I wish the driver didn't see us... or more over, I wish nobody saw us O_O
hmm... and then we asked the driver to let us down uhm, not near our subdivision
and we walked and I waited for him to ride another tricycle coz he's going home
I repeatedly said that I love him n_n
while we were walking, he suprisely kissed me on my lips again
ahahah! it's a really sweet kiss
we kiss like, for 20 seconds or less
and I really felt that he'll miss me from that kiss
hm... after that, we bid goodbye
and I walked home
and sleep coz of exhaustion
and today, is really a boring day
I woke up 10:00am
and the first thing on my mind
was his face
and I really love what I'm thinking
ee... I want to shout out loud that I love him n_n
ohhh... I want to daydream so...
that's all for today!
My third year college life ends yesterday
bye-beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

errr... yeah... -_-...

Mood:
somewhat annoyed ^^"

hey blog... sorry for not updating...
sigh... ok the same reason... busy, lazy,... -_-...
hmm... but now, let me write what I feel...
today is a very... busy day...
ugh, I went to school to ask my CISCO prof if I can still take the final exam online...
hmm... I haven't taken it yet coz of some reason...
gonna tell u later mmkay?
not on the mood right now... -_-...
and then, our CISCO prof was not around yet
ugh... and so I decided to go to CASS to meet my retorika teacher coz I'll submit our grades
but alas! she's not around... $#%$@^&
hmm.. I was feeling weak... coz I'm alone...
and I didn't eat breakfast and lunch..
so I decided to eat at Mcdo
I treat myself for WORKING SO HARD HAHAH!
hmm... yesh, I was so tired and thirsty that time
and I look like a moron... -_-...
hmm... after that, I return to school, and saw my classmates
yesh they look so... as if they don't have any problems...
envy envy...
well, look at me... I'm so busy and I'm like walking around!
while they are just chatting and doing things they want to do
well, I guess I deserve to be busy
that's my consequence for having fun last weekends
and for always sleeping for too long orz
hmm... Marianne and Glecy look like they don't care if they still can take the final exam in CISCO,
and decided to go to some place quiet and cold
I mean, WTF?! as if they really really really don't care!!!
and they want me to answer their final exam?! #!%^#&^$&*
arrgh... YESH! I REFUSE!
that's too much... way tooooo much!
they have their little relaxing time enjoying theirselves while I
I was like sooooo busy the whole time!
and I'm kinda annoyed waiting for our prof!!!
and then, yesh... they left...
they leave me and go to the place they want to stay
I was left there waiting...
moan... I wish someone will accompany me....
but no00o0o0o0o0...
my classmates Neil and Clariza were there
but they were busy chatting -_-...
hmm... after that I went to the net lab...
and saw some friends...
good thing I went there
they gave me a copy of the request form for OJT
ee... I thought I was going home empty handed T^T
soooo... I waited for the faculty meeting to end so that I can have our dean's signature
damn faculty meeting! their having their conversation waaay tooo long!!
I was like, going in and out our bldg. like a moron
and I've been walking and walking and walking and walking...
and oh, did I mention that I've been walking?!
hmm... and for an hour or so, finally the meeting ended!
I finally got the signature of those important people...
I wanna go home so badly...
and yesh, I was relieved to see our CISCO prof
and I made him reopen the final exam XD
ahahah! mission 1 accomplished! X3
the only thing I haven't done was to pass our grades and requirement to our retorika prof
but well, I'll just pass it tomorrow... if ever I see her
but now let me just relax...
and do things I want to do...
hmm... wait... something happened now
that made my heart hurt T^T
it's becoz, my knight wanted me to answer his final exam
it's ok with me coz it's him buuuuuut,
his password is really hurtfull! T^T
you know what that is???
Rellma321
rellma is marianne, my best friend
and it's his password
that's.... ouch... hurt me through the heart TT^TT
uwaah... I think he had a crush on her!!! TT^TT
that's really hurtful! so sad! so frustrating! so... so... annoying!!!
uwahahahah! my knight and my bestfriend really hurt me today!!! TT^TT
so now, I'm not in the mood to write my letter for my knight...
and to write the happenings on our monthsary last saturday... O_O
and I think I don't want to see them tomorrow
even though they have to sign their OJT forms...
so til here
hope tomorrow's a good day...
byeeeee-beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

a very VERY very special day n_n

Mood:

--> So deeply inlove

Yesh... This day is a very VERY very special day for me... and for my knight...

coz this is the day, February 27, 2010... 1:34pm... at the topmost floor of the college of education bldg at Lucinda Campus, Tarlac State University, Tarlac City, we became... an official couple n_n

err... aheheh... suprise suprise! ahahah XDDD

hmm... it started like this...

hmm... we went at school to take pics for our multimedia project... and then... blah blah yada yada.. ( I want to write the best part so I'll pass) n_n

and so, we decided to go to Lucinda campus to take pics... hm...

while we were charging the battery of my digicam, me and my Knight decided to... err... explore the educ bldg... eheheh ^^;

and so, we leave Glecy, Marianne, Nimfa and Joan there... there there.. I don't know where orz..

hm... we went to the top floor of the bldg., and up there was a very very very beautiful scene...

I was like... wow... It was really soooooo amazing...

I see how wide the whole world is O_O

aheheh... hmm... my gawd... it's so, wonderful

like, I can see the sky so clearly, and the so wide landscape... lolz (sorry bad grammar... orz)

hmm... we sat there coz it was so quiet... and there was no one around.. just the two of us

and coz we were tired of walking and going up there ehehe ^^

hmm... he then hold my hand, and ask me what was the meaning of 'Daisuki desu'

coz, yesterday, I gave him a letter and another one with that word

and he don't know the meaning of it, coz it's japanese n_n

hmm... I was really shy that time coz... idk... coz I'm nervous I think

but he really wanted me to say it,... and soo...

but I'm really nervous... and embarassed (what?)

and after a very long time, he decided to say it again

to say that he loves me... and that he really really really loves me... XD

aheheh... he's voice is still echoing inside my head hahah!

so I write it on his had... the letter 'I', and symbol heart, and the last letter 'U'...

he got excited (I think)... ahehhe... and like... hm... so happy... he's so cute hahah! XD

and then he look at my eyes... and I was like looking the other way... eheh

hm... after that, he said that he'll be more happy if I said it straight to him... in front of him... from my very own lips... ee XD

hmm... I want him to be happy so I said it... that... I love him too... in a very very very slow tone... like... he said it first before me... something like that n_n

and he was so happy he asked me if we're now a couple...

I was shocked... but at the same time happy...

we promise each other to keep it a secret from everyone... including our parents, friends... and everyone around

that is our very own secret... just the two of us knowing that... aheheh

( I hope no one will ever read this... specially mom... or else I'm so doomed O_O)

then he kissed me on my cheeks.. he asked me to kiss him too

But I was like, so aggresive (what the hell?) that time I want him to kiss me... on the lips... orz *blushes

and then, yesh... he kissed me... on my lips... like... for 10 seconds... and I was like, woah...

his lips, was sooo soft... and I want to kiss him more... so we kiss for the second time... longer than the first

hmm... my heart beats so fast it really hurts that time... O_O

and I hug him... and he hug me too

he thank me for loving him... and I felt the same way to him...

even though I want to say those things, no words came out my mouth

but I wsih he felt it anyways

I'm his first, and he want me to be his last...

and I want the same thing too

ee...then, we decided to call each other 'Yam'...

err... I donm't know why... he's the one who said it anyway ^^

It's a really funny name to call each other, and weird at the same time hahah XD

but it's cute X3

hmm... I really think he's sooo cute that time..

when I was looking on his eyes, I really fell inlove...

ahahah... isn't it weird?

I'm in love... so deeply inlove...

I don't want this feeling to go away...

I want to, share the good and bad times with him

Always with him... I want that...

I really really really love him

I said it to him while I hug him so tight

and then, when we decided to leave, I kiss him again while walking (woah I was so aggresive, don't you think? O_O)

and hug him tightly... so tight... that I don't want to let him go... and I mwant to stop time

hm... but then, the others are waiting for us aheheh...

before we went downstairs, he asked for one last kiss

and that kiss, was like... so sweet...

he kiss me like... he don't want to let it go hahah!

and me too, I want to stop time that time... and kiss him crazily

yesh... I'm crazily inlove...

I'm so weird... this feeling is sooo weird... everythings weird

and I can't believe I receive my first, second, third and fourth kiss that time

and I'm sooo happy coz it's from him

I love it, this feeling... I want to cry... tears of joy...

I wish, we can still do that sometime...

I want him to feel the same feelings I did

so... that's that... our love story...

This is not the end... but the beginning of our very long journey

It's going to be tough, but I wish our relationship will be strong

and I wish we can be stronger...

ahhehe...

so til here!

by the way, sorry for not updating for almost 2 months O_O

lots of things happened... apart from that, Iw as so busy and everything

gonna tell you this later...

for now, I want to daydream... and think back what happened...

bye-bee!

Happy New Year 2010! + Yosh! 2 weeks update

'kay so I'll be posting 2 weeks update, from December 21st to 30th ^^;

December 21, 2009 - Monday

hmm... again, I can't remember... so bare with it! XC

December 22, 2009 - Tuesday

Yesh I cannot forget abou this day :D
This day my Knight and I went shopping for me to buy Christmas gifts for everyone ^^
hmm... So it started like this
At first, I didn't tell my mom that my Knight will accompany me
But just so she noticed that I'm preparing to go somewhere
So I just said the truth
I thought she'll be angry, but then she just agree and all
hmm... My mom accompany me to school, where me and my Knight will meet
After waiting, I finally saw my Knight
And it's really funny he's hiding coz he's scared to mom
(coz he didn't know that mom knew we will be together heheh)
hmm... we were laughing and all
And my classmate, Tin, saw me, my knight and mom together
ahaha... hmm... I expect issues in school will spread at the start of class
Then Mom and I seperate ways
She's going to the market, and me and my knight will go to mall to buy gifts ^^
hmm... I thought of giving dad a tshirt, ark a chocolate and my sis a cellphone bag(?)
Sis already had a gift for mom, so she ask me not to buy one anymore,
so I have to buy one for dad
(we'll divide it between the two of us hehhe)
hmm... after we bought a gift for dad, I decided not to buy chocolates for ark (my lil bro)
I'll just buy him a box of sprinkles... ahehhe...
hmmm... and then we went to metrotown mall to buy my gift for sis
and at the 3rd floor we went to wrap the gifts
hmm... My knight bought 4 siomai, coz he doesn't have money ehehe
He said it was really spicy, so he just ate one and give the rest to me
ahahah! I was glad coz he then bought ice cream :D
hmm... what more happened?
He accompany me to buy some personal stuffs
Like lotion, cotton etc.
We were talking to each other while walking, and it's really great
I was never bored while we were walking, even if we walk a long way :)
at pass 2pm he walked me home
Mom was not home that time so he hadn't talked to her
And then we bid goodbye...
He texted me saying he was ashamed coz I was so hungry when I was with him
But I thought it's ok, it's really fun to be with him though ^^

December 23, 2009 - Wednesday

It's the death anniversary of my aunt Janet
So nobody should be too happy today
hmm... It's also Glecy's relatives' baptism today
They invited me but I insisted
I didn't texted them coz they'll just annoy me

December 24, 2009 - Thursday

One day before Christmas!
Actually we're going to celebrate or noche buena at midnight today ^^
Yesh I'm totally excited XD
I was up finishing my artwork!
(gonna post it later heheh)
and then I'll send it via friendster to my friends ^^
actually, that artwork is my gift for Papa Jesus
who is the birthday celebrant tomorrow
hmm... I'm dedicating it to Him for the talent He gave me ^^
hmm... then near midnight, my friends texted me
Greeting me Merry Christmas and all ^^
aheheh... but sad to say I didn't reply (no load orz)
I help in the preparation of foods
Like, I look for the barbeque ^^
hmm... everyone was so busy
Mom and Dad and Ark were busy sleeping
And sis, is surfing the net I think
ee... I wish everyone would wake up for the noche buena
I went outside and write a letter for Jesus through text (and still on my cellphone drafts heheh)
They did wake up, 30 minutes late -_-............
But it's ok, we exchanged gifts and all
I receive a tshirt with a very cute design, a soap, and undies from mom
ahahah! sis, ark and dad didn't give me anything but its ok ^^
hmm... after that sleep time
I had fun this day ehhe

December 25, 2009 - Friday

The day Papa Jesus came to earth! :D
I did uploaded my gift for him yesterday ehehe
hmm..., today, it's really like a normal day
But no one should be fighting...
hmm... what more...
there's still lots of kids going to houses and carol
nobody should be greedy so mom and dad gave them something hehhe

December 26, 2009 - Saturday

Crap! It's Jessica's birthday today!
Actually, it's her debut O_O
I thought it's going to be tomorrow
Glcy texted me, asking if I'll come
But Marianne said she will not, so I decided not to go too
I didn't reply on Glecy's text, nor answer her calls
(I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooo rude orz)

December 27, 2009 - Sunday

Yet another occasion I didn't attend: our Christmas/Year end party as a class
Crap! I thought it was going to be swimming but I guess wrong -_-...
sigh... I just told them that mom ddn't allow me, so I didn't go
and we didn't went to church too -_-...

December 28 - 30, 2009 - Monday - Wednesday

Nothing much...coz I really don't remember heheh
I just remeber that we had a group meeting for our SAD subject
research proposal or something
and my knight and I had a fight
coz I was in a bad mood
And he was calling the later days but I didn't answer his calls
He got mad when I texted something
Like, I was pissed off and he thought he was annoying me
But then we made things up
He texted first, apologizing for being so annoying
and I apologize for being hot tempered...
He went to our house to get some lectures coz he'll review too
He was with his friend, and he gave me siomai heheh
hmm... I was happy seeing him again at this time

hmm... 'kay so til here for now,
I'm kinda lazy.............
I'm watching K-ON! eheheh
bye-bee!